Not the Same

Pull up to your house

Your blinds are not open

You’re not in your chair

Ready to welcome

Take a deep breath

Walk through your door

A quick glance around

You aren’t here anymore

Not wrapped up in your hug

No kiss upon my face

Overwhelmingly odd

Standing here in this space

Make my way to your room

Sit at the end of your bed

Let myself cry

Memories fill my head

Tell you I love you

That I wish you were here

Close my eyes for a moment

You feel so near

Grab a sweater from your closet

One that is cozy and blue

I’ll wrap it around me

To feel close to you

I love you, Grandma. Xo

Thank you for reading.

With love,

J♡

Heaven Gained a Wonderful Woman

Hello, friends. I’m afraid I have some bad news. Yesterday afternoon, Heaven gained a wonderful woman. God calls her Child. Those she left behind call her Mom, Friend, Nana, Granny. I call her Grandma. She is a beautiful, smart, witty, crafty, talented woman who will be missed tremendously. She loved with all her heart and gave hugs that could ease your pain. She had the motherly/grandmother intuition that let her know when something was wrong. Sometimes she would text me, ” Nik, you can’t hide things from Grandma. You can tell me anything”, and I could because I knew that she would keep my secrets safe. She and I had a grandma/granddaughter sleep over some years ago that didn’t quite go as planned. We kept saying that she owed me another one. I told her last night, “you owe me a girls night when I get there”. I know that hopefully that won’t be for a long time from now, but I wanted her to know I hadn’t forgotten about it. The pain of losing her keeps coming in waves. Her going Home yesterday was completely unexpected and the whole family is hurting and a bit in shock. I would like to ask you all to please pray for peace and comfort, especially for her children, most of whom are living across country. I know that this must be especially hard on them being so far away. My uncle who was living with her is going to have a lot to handle and could use prayers for peace, comfort and strength.

I Guess God Needed You More

I just spoke to you on Friday

It was so good to hear your voice

We’d talk again I was sure

But I guess God needed you more

You were going to stop by tomorrow

You had a box of food for us

You said you’d leave it outside the door

But I guess God needed you more

Christmas will be here soon

I had your gift all planned out

I was going to paint the picture you asked me for

But I guess God needed you more

I’ve been terrible about calling

We didn’t visit nearly enough

You still had plenty of time in this world

But I guess God needed you more

Friends, hug those around you, pick up the phone, make the trip. We are not promised tomorrow; let them know now how much you love them.

With love,

J♡