A Bit of This and That

Good morning (afternoon/evening), friends! Here’s my random post for this Friday…it is Friday, right?! My days and times get so mixed up.

My son is fascinated by accents, as am I. Truth be told I’ve always been a bit jealous that I don’t have one. Although, maybe to others, I do? Anyway, my son has a report he’s working on at school that led him to want to try speaking in a British accent. To YouTube we went…so many great teaching videos on there. I think I need more practice. I sound ridiculous, I’m sure. Any suggestions?

As I was heading to pick the kids up from school yesterday, I saw a power wheelchair stopped in the bike lane. Wanting to make sure someone wasn’t stranded in need of help, I glanced over. The chair was empty. Looked over past the sidewalk and a man appeared to be relieving his bladder against the wall. I thought for just a second about calling it in, but I don’t want someone to end up with a sex offender title simply because they couldn’t hold their pee. I hope I made the right decision.

This morning on my way home from dropping the kids at school, I witnessed a poor bird die. He fluttered real hard into the street and when I got a better look, he’s wings looked very damaged. He probably had been hit by a car. I wanted so bad to help it, but it was impossible without causing a car accident. In my car mirror, I saw the little thing struggling to get out of the road, and then it suddenly went very still. I felt so bad for it. It also made me think about how much I don’t ever want to die alone.

Pain this week has been absolutely horrible. I am fed up, but I have to keep going. Tomorrow and Sunday, we are having our craft sale. I have a feeling Monday and Tuesday will be spent trying to recoup from the pain this weekend will bring. I’ve been using the CBD oil, but haven’t really noticed any changes so far. From my understanding, it may take a while. I’ve been very good about taking my antidepressant on time every night, so my mood has been pretty stable. I’m still taking Hydrocodone for pain relief, but I’ve been on it so long that it doesn’t work as well as it used to. I’m thinking about trying hypnotherapy next. Has anyone tried this for pain relief?

I know that I write and post my poems on here once in a while, but I do not consider myself a poet by any means. I know there are many forms of poetry, but if you ask me what I write in or what my favorite style is, I’ll probably just shrug, smile and say, the rhyming kind? That being said, I would like to become a better writer and I am open to constructive criticism. Don’t be shy.

Well friends, that’s all for now. I wish you all a wonderful weekend. 😊

With love,

J♡

Random Life Post for the Weekend

I was blessed with a mild pain day, yesterday. Today unfortunately, is a 12/10 on the pain scale sort of day. It’s okay though; I know I’ll get through it like I have before. The kids have been so well behaved, helpful, and sweet today. It really makes a huge difference on days like these.

I saw the physician assistant at the pain clinic on Thursday. She is amazing and always doing what she can to help with symptoms. She and I have discussed doing a nerve stimulation implant trial. We both feel it would be a great option for me. However, if it worked, to have the permanent implant placed, would mean another major surgery. This idea makes my family nervous and they want me to try medical marijuana first. I’m okay with this, but I do think that overall, it could be very costly. While I’m looking into getting my medical card, the PA recommended I try the cbd oil. It’s 1mL under the tounge, 1-2 times a day. I’ve now taken 5 doses. I haven’t noticed a difference in pain yet, but I do think it may be helping improve my appetite and lower stress and anxiety. We shall see how things go with continuous use.

For months and months, I’ve been debating deactivating my Facebook account. The biggest reason I haven’t is so I can keep up with what’s going on with family and see pictures that the school posts. I hardly use the app anymore, but when I do, I end up feeling crappy. It’s always the same stuff – political posts, memes, and pictures of how perfectly wonderful life is.

I am so incredibly thankful for the friendship the kids have made with the little boy across the street (the one I mentioned previously). They are so anxious to play together every day, especially my daughter and the kiddo. How incredible it would be to see them grow up to be lifelong friends. I wish I could say that I was still connected with my childhood friends, but sadly, we’ve become more like aquaintences. Forming a new friendship in the adult world seems so much harder. I wish it were still as easy as playing together on the playground and then deciding that you are now friends.

Yesterday, the kiddos had a “Fun Run” at school. The music plays, and the kids run laps on the field and through the giant inflatable mascot to raise money for the school. People can make fixed donations or a price per lap donation. All the kids wear a cool shirt with numbers 1-30 on the back, and as they cross the line, teachers/parent volunteers (myself included), mark off the number as they complete each lap. My kiddos had 2 different run times. The little kids were so full of energy. My son originally told me I could “watch from the parking lot”, haha. He didn’t want to be embarrassed. But, there I was on the field, helping to mark shirts. I must have gained back my cool mom points, because he gave me lots of hugs in front of everyone. 😊

I still insist that I don’t want to live in Arizona forever. While I’m here though, I can still enjoy our beautiful sunsets. This shot was from our neighborhood. So peaceful.

I’ve been doing quite a bit of sewing to get ready for the craft sale we are doing next weekend. I would like to work on it so much more, I just don’t have the energy lately.

On better pain days, it so much fun to go riding with my husband. It is so freeing and such a stress reliever. I like to spread my arms out and be a bird while we ride. This is from when we took a ride up to Saguaro Lake while the kids were in school. Looking forward to the next trip.


So, even though today is a very bad pain day, it doesn’t have to be a bad day; there are still things to smile about.

Thanks for taking your time to stop by and share in this journey with me. Happy weekend to you all.

With love,

J♡