Some Happy News for Me

I haven’t been very good with my posts this week; I’m sorry. It is partially because I’ve been busy. If I’m being honest…it was partially because I was pouting.

Tuesday was the day I was supposed to receive a phone call with an update about insurance approval and scheduling of the spinal cord stimulator trial. I waited, but no call. I don’t like to be a pest, so I decided I would wait until Wednesday and call them in the afternoon. Then I decided, no, I’ll wait until Thursday; that’ll be one week from the last conversation with the coordinator.

Well, I waited with my phone all day yesterday, like a teenage girl waiting for her crush to call on the landline. Nothing. I waited until about 10 this morning and gave a call. Answering machine…damnit. I left my voice message and true to my nature, apologized for pestering her. She called me back about an hour later, and guess what?! Insurance gave the approval and I am now scheduled!!! I will have the procedure done on the 25th and then have the leads removed on July 2nd. I cannot begin to tell you how excited I am for this! I have confidence that this is going to work, and that I’ll be able to get the permanent implant after, and life will be better.

There is a downfall to my good news though. It just so happens to be scheduled during the week we were supposed to go on vacation. The kids will still be able to go with their grandparents. I told my husband he should go and have a great time. He declined and is choosing to stay here with me. How sweet is that? I’m beyond blessed to have his love and support, even though I know this procedure terrifies him.

That’s all for now. I hope you all have something in your day that makes you smile. Take care.

With love,

J♡

I Hope This Makes You Smile

I guess I technically missed my Monday post, as it is now almost 1am. Oops…I really am trying to stay on track. Anyway, I just wanted to share a couple pictures of my daughter, in hopes that it will bring a smile to your face like it did mine.

Remember this sweater from my Christmas pajamas? My daughter tried it on tonight. I must say she makes an adorable sloth. I may or may not have (totally did) fueled my kids’ obsession with sloths. ☺

With love,

J♡

A Random Post for Sunday

This is so true for me. I used to be a morning person and actually hated sleeping in. Now, I sleep in when possible and need multiple naps a day.

This may also be accurate.

I was asked by the lady at the gas station if I was from Arizona and if by chance my name was Donna. Apparently I have a doppelganger from Kansas…or was it Arkansas? Either way, pretty cool!

After a good pain day yesterday, I was hoping today would be good also. It started off rough but got a little easier, so I can’t complain too much.

Time to finish watching Spider-man Into the Spider-verse with the kiddos.

Have a great night/day, friends.

With love,

J♡

My Life, This Thursday

I feel accomplished today, but oh so drained and my body absolutely hates me. Today was one of those days where I pushed to do more than I can handle. I tidied up the house, vacuumed, mopped, took out the trash, showered, did some laundry, and most importantly kept the kids alive. I know that for many people, those tasks are no big deal, completing them multiple times a week and then some, but that’s not my world anymore. I feel like I have just worked a forty hour week. I don’t say this for sympathy or a pat on the back; I say it as a reminder to myself that I am doing the best I can and that is good enough. I often find myself feeling guilty that I don’t accomplish more daily, or compare myself to other people who tackle so much more in life. I’m trying to break this habit since it only hurts my mental and physical well being.

I found out today, that my primary insurance has approved the spinal cord stimulation trial, and now we’re just waiting for approval from our secondary insurance. The woman who handles all of this at the pain clinic, said she would get an update and get back to me by Tuesday, as she will be out of the office until then. I said to her, “sorry, I don’t mean to be a pain in the butt, I’m just anxious for pain relief”. She responded with “no, you’re fine, I completely understand”. What a sweetheart! The healthcare world needs more people like her.

My kids are amazing. I feel guilty so often that I am not the mother I would like to be, for them. They are so understanding and helpful when they know I am hurting really bad or am exhausted. They don’t mind when I need a nap and often times insist that I take one. I don’t even think they realize how much this means to me, though I try to tell them often.

I got bit by so many mosquitos today, that I am convinced there must have been on sign on me reading, All You Can Eat Buffet. When Noah was told to take two of each living creature on the arc, are we sure that mosquitoes were on the list? I need more Citronella candles asap.


Another pain pill in my body for the night and I’m ready to just do nothing.

Wishing you all a Happy whatever day it is, depending on where you are in the world. Take care, friends.

Images from http://Pixabay.com

With love,

J♡

I Am

I Am

By J♡

I am

The worn piece of furniture

Taking up space on your floor

The tattered blanket

That can’t warm you anymore

The burned down candle

That will no longer light

The glare from the sun

Disrupting your sight

The shattered glass

Through which you can no longer see

I am all of these things

But this is not me


Thank you for reading.

P.s. sorry, I missed my post yesterday.

With love,

J♡