Hello, friends. Can you believe it’s Friday already? Where the heck did this week go?
I’ve been in a funk. Pain has been really bad lately, both fibro and my back and hips. My legs have been giving out a lot the last few days causing plenty of near falls. We joke about my wobbly walking being a cool new dance move. It helps to find the humor in these things, ya know? I’ve been having to take a pain killer every day, sometimes twice a day, and it helps me get my mind off the pain, but it’s still there.
I’m feeling emotionally/mentally exhausted, and not even the beautiful, cold rainy days are lifting my mood like they normally do. There’s so much I need to do, but don’t, so much I want to do, but can’t, and things that I’ve gotten so far behind on (like reading everyone’s posts…sorry😢). I start to feel really motivated to do all of it, but then feel overwhelmed and find myself sucked into the world of YouTube videos or a game on my phone instead.
Having said all that, I feel guilty for complaining at all. So many people would gladly welcome my struggles in place of what they go through. Remember how I said I was working on a quilt for a very special person? Well, she is facing struggles that I can’t even imagine going through. She is incredibly brave, and stubborn (in a good way). Her struggles keep increasing, but she still manages to smile and crack jokes, and love with all her heart. I look at her and think, who the hell am I to complain.
The one thing I did accomplish this past week, was the quilt. I started it last Wednesday and finished it at 4am on Monday. I was determined to finish it in time to take it to her on Monday afternoon. The tiredness I felt that day was totally worth it, to see the smile on her face. She loved it.
I’m going to try to catch up on everything else this weekend. Good thing I have a giant can of coffee grounds in the pantry. I’m going to need it. I wish you all a wonderful and safe weekend.