I’m Sorry

I’m Sorry

By: J♡

I remember the day

You first saw the marks

All self inflicted

On my legs and arms

You seemed almost angry

I would do such a thing

You didn’t know how

I could be in such pain

You questioned

And I tried to explain

But words couldn’t describe

What was inside my brain

And inside my heart

And inside my soul

I only knew that

I didn’t feel whole

You didn’t understand

When I said

This gives me control

You seemed almost angry

I would do such a thing

I didn’t understand then

I was also causing you pain

I wasn’t a parent yet

So I couldn’t comprehend

That when your child is hurting

There are some wounds

You just can’t mend

You seemed so angry

And so I lashed out

I said things that shouldn’t

Have ever left my mouth

It was my inner demon

That I was angry with

Not you

I’m so sorry for

The things that I said

I never meant to hurt you

While fighting the monster

Inside my head

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Thank you for reading.

With love,

J♡